Good question. I feel many things. Starting with the negatives (only so I can finish with the positives), I feel:
- frustrated that I gained 2 pounds,
- discouraged by and nervous about the pain in my shins,
- resentful when I do everything I can think of to make healthy choices and broadcast my goals and yet people still push food on me to make themselves feel better…there’s a point where you have to stop saying no or risk being rude and I HATE THAT,
- insecure because I’ve always blogged on blogspot where people read if they want to and I have several loyal readers, but with my duplicate blog over on tumblr having the ‘like’ option, I feel like a loser when no one responds to or likes my posts,
- stupid for feeling insecure about what I just wrote above, and
- overwhelmed by the amount of weight I need to lose (at least 50-60 pounds before I can even think about getting thin).
- confident that this is my year,
- hopeful that after having years of weddings and vacations and graduations and various other events, this will be the year I feel great about my body when I go to these things,
- supported by the awesome feedback I’ve gotten from my friends and fellow bloggers,
- like a badass for running in the snow and horrible weather conditions,
- like I’m the one at the helm of this ship, and with some time and training, I will conquer the pirates (both internal and external)!
I don't have a tumblr account so I can't comment on or like the blogs I read over there, there are quite a few. Maybe that's some of the 'issue' for your tumblr blog.
ReplyDeleteI'm prone to medial shin splints, they've derailed my running efforts several times in the past. Not that I minded. Along with calf stretches (tight calves and Achilles hurray!) I've added a foam roller to my stretch routine. I don't have the upper body strength (or I have too much upper body) to hold myself up for the whole exercise but it seems to be alleviating some of the tenderness. It was $15 and well worth it.
And I hear you, when I think about the 65 pounds have ahead of me it feels daunting so I'm looking at it in 5 pound increments.
You got this!
Random lurker going back into the shadows.
I think you are amazing. THIS is your year and you can do it and we're all behind you. Your candor is why we love you and it would not be the same to hear you speak (write) otherwise. Keep it up Tammy - we're all behind you!!! :)
ReplyDeleteYou're amazing!! :) We love you and don't feel insecure--we will boost your confidence and tell you we're proud of you every day. Screw those tumblr readers! Blogspot rocks!
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